I dont wanna talk...if it makes you feel sad...

this thing still exists?

2008-02-29T12:35:26Z

and people still use it? wow, I've been out of the loop for awhile now. Just been extremely busy, but that's never a good excuse I guess...

Still married, happily =] Living in East Bumblefuck, NJ, but I've come to grow an attachment to this town, my apartment, and my job. I never stay in one place for more than a year tops, that mark will be coming up soon, this April. I'm planning on renewing the lease then. WOW. I've changed a lot, for the better I think. I've come to realize that it's not worth my time to worry about the small shit, or the big shit for that matter. If there's nothing you can do about it, why bother panicking about it? No point. Besides, I haven't really had anything to worry about. I can pay my bills and rent, I have a nice car, an awesome job, and a wonderful husband to top it off.

Me and mom joined the gym, I'm going to try to quit smoking because well, let's face it...smoking and going to the gym doesn't really mesh well. I'm trying to improve myself in a lot of different ways. I don't get involved in drama, just aggravating. I'm not in high school anymore, so drama is out of the question. I just generally feel...liberated I guess you could say...

Finally...

..:UPDATE:..

2007-08-03T16:16:47Z

well shit, again it has been a really long time, i didnt even know this thing still existed haha. dayuum.. anyway, UPDATE! lol

Im married, happily:)

to this sexy man...:)

i got a new apartment! its beautiful and i decorated it pretty! Finally have a good car that runs great:) couldnt be betta! :-P

**Cut my hair**

OHH, and also, i live a floor above my mommy:) We're finally together again!

all good news, leave love:)

this is what my new car looks like:)

2006-09-20T17:02:18Z

EXCEPT...mines a 2-door, and a 5-speed manual :) yay!

ello

2006-07-25T15:19:47Z

yea, long time, i know i know. Cant write a lot now cause im at work, but ill squeeze as much in as i can.

Just so everyone knows...George and I...no longer. I finally realized he treats me like shit...so i got rid of that thorn.

In April, I took off (was supposed to be for a week) to West Virginia, just to get away, and kind of collect my thought, i was going through a rough time...and well to be honest, no one in new jersey was helping matters. Friends backstabbing me, using me, etc...

Charles (my ex from like 5 years ago, now my bf again lol) kept telling me for months, you should come out here, youll be less stressed, just come visit. Sooo, i left at like 6pm sometime during the week. Took me 5 hours or so, and it was pouring rain the whole time. I was freaking out cause my cars a piece of shit (well i thought it was, but its still fuckin running lol.)

Anyways, so when i got here, i had so much fun. Everything was just so much easier here, making friends, seeing old ones, partying, etc. A week went by and i really didnt want to go back, there was nothing in jersey for me to come back for to be honest. (just my cousin, and a few friends from manchester)

So Charles is like 'fuck it, just stay, we'll figure something out' hes funny as hell, hes so laid back, and care free, and it helps sooo much.

Im so much happier here. I got a job (front desk at Euro Suites, this really fancy hotel) thats just temporary though, until i go to school here, which should be pretty easy considering its the university town lol. Me and Charles are getting an apt. Trying to save up. Its cheap here tho for really nice apts.

Well, thatll be all for now.

I have to say this is the happiest ive been in years:P

alrighty...buhbyes...

Ohhhh and PS- i lost my phone lol, so i need peoples numbers. Give em to meh!

My kitten face!

2006-06-01T19:18:02Z

Meet Marmalade:)

She was a little tired, but i tried to get a good shot of her. She's more orange, and the hand in the background is mine for size reference lol...

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v497/JerzeeRox/marmalade.jpg

totally bored...

2006-01-26T14:19:11Z

How much you've changed...

Take this quiz, post the results, and see how much things have changed since then.

4 YEARS AGO

How old were you?: 15

What school year were you in?: Sophmore

Where did you go to school?: Manchester Regional High School

Where did you work?: The Rag Shop

Where did you live?: Prospect Park

Where did you hang out?: Louie's house, the mall, shows

How was your hair style?: Long and brownish red

Did you wear braces? Nope

Did you wear glasses: contacts

Who was your best friend?: Heather

Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend?: Louis

Who was your celebrity crush?: Has and always will be Johnny Depp

Who was your regular-person crush?: My Boyfriend, duh

How many piercings did you have?: just my ears

How many tattoos did you have?: None

What was your favorite band?: Linkin Park, haha

What was your worst fear?: death, as it will always be

Had you smoked a cigarette yet: yes

Had you gotten drunk or high yet?: yea

Had you driven yet?: nope
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HA HA HA!!! LETS SEE WHAT YOU ARE NOW !!!!!
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How old are you?: 19

What school year are you in?: working

Where do you go to school?: i dont

where do you work?: DPI, clerical work

Where do you live?: hawthorne, on my own

Where do you hang out?: My house, the bar, pretty much anywhere fun

How is your hair style?: Gettin long again, reddish

Do you wear glasses?: Only when im lazy and dont feel like puttin my contacts in

Who is your best friend?: um, there's felicia, nicole, and kerri

Who is your boyfriend/girlfriend?: George

Who is your celebrity crush?: same as above

Who is your regular-person crush?: Georgy porgey

How many tattoos do you have?: 2

How many piercings do you have?: 4, two in each ear, my nose, and belly

What is your favorite band?: All american rejects bitch, my chem, disturbed, so many

What is your biggest fear? good ole death

Have you driven yet?: like over two yrs

Have you smoked a cigarette yet?: everyday

Have you gotten drunk or high yet?: yea...bleh

DO IT!

2006-01-10T14:38:27Z

YOU GET TO ASK ME SIX QUESTIONS::
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No matter how random, revealing, rude, or pointless
I promise to answer them 100% truthfully
Repost this to see what others ask you...
IF YOU DONT THEN YOU'RE SCARED OF WHAT PEOPLE MAY ASK

on the road again

2006-01-06T18:38:10Z

Paid for the car, changed the title, registered it, and got plates...HOLLER!

got a car...

2006-01-05T17:02:19Z

yayness! got a car, payin for it today and gettin the title, pontiac grand am, 92, black, in really good condition inside and out. go me!

bored, at work

2006-01-04T15:44:28Z

im at work, as usual.

I realized i need a ssecond job, a bullshit job that i can be a lazy shit at and make a lot of money...ha. not that easy.

Unless someone knows where i can get a car for dirt cheap that runs...

what's up guys?

2006-01-03T20:07:22Z

hiya.

Well, this weekend was pretty awesome.

George slept over my apt. from thurs - mon. It was nice. Felt like we were living together again. I made him breakfast and dinner. Got to wake up to eachother..

Went to a friends house for New year's. Me and George. We got a little buzzed, nothin too serious.

Went to the mall on Sun. Me george and Feli. Feli got me the whole first season of laguna beach!! so excited...yea so im an ass for liking that show, but so what!!

came home watched most of it.

George got the jackass box set. Watched some of that too.

Moday we did nothin, just slept really late, and watched tv.

All in all it was a good weekend.

Happy New Year everyone!

Got my own place

2005-12-29T18:47:30Z

yea its all in the subject, im happy, got my own place and lovin. u should all come see it bitches...

hell yea

2005-12-16T21:52:41Z

i went to my companys christmas party last night...i got drunk, i was loaded, it was great....

In other news...
Im getting my own apartment. Its in hawthorne. Its cute, i love it. Ill finally after 2 years of hard work, have was i came here for, responsibilities, my own place, peace... finally.....

hell yea

2005-12-16T21:52:21Z

hey asshole

2005-12-07T17:56:22Z

ok listen. I got a message today in my email saying 'heres your LJ password'. Whoever is trying to get into my LJ by sending an email to me...get a life, your pretty fuckin stupid. I have a pretty good idea of who it is.

lj's giong downhill

2005-12-02T15:02:15Z

LJ sucks now, no one updates including me....im more of a myspace whore..., ill only update if i have something interesting to write...peace..

Live every day like it's your last

2005-11-28T16:21:35Z

A friend of mine killed herself on saturday. Im not posting this for pity, Im simply posting this because you just never know if you'll wake up one day and someone will be gone.

George and I are friends with a couple and they were on the verge of breaking up. He woke up to her dead on Satuday morning. They think she OD'd on heroine. I didnt even see that she was sad. We didn'e even know she was into heroine. Horrible way to find out...

I just want to say that life is a gift, and i didnt used to think so...Everyone has their problems, but that's no way to get out of them. You devastate the people around you. I see this now and realize that. I wish she would've called me even though it might not have helped, but i could've at least tried to make her realize there's always a way out but not that way...it's just so sudden and i still cant believe it.

To all of the people I love, i realized this all a little to late, but i dont want it to happen again, you know who you are. I love you guys, and if you ever feel like you have no way out, Im here..i will always be here.

holler

2005-07-12T16:56:22Z

so i havent updated lately cause i was in florida. George and I went to fl. to see some of his family, and also for a vacation. Left on july 10th and came back like two days ago. Kicked ass. Swam a lot, got really tan, went to this awesome water park, and a lot. Took bunches of pics....thats about all for now, i dont really have to much time to write, just wanted to update. buhbyes...

COME TO MY HOUSE SUNDAY!!

2005-04-29T18:07:14Z

Holler...So on sunday Im having a barbeque at my new house. I want a bunch of people to come, so if u know anyone bring them too. Heres all the info.

Date: Sunday, May 1st

Time: 4PM

What: Free FOOOOOD! (barbeque) lol

Hot dogs, Hamburgers, Steaks, all u can eat...whoo hoo.

Bring whoever u want, as many as u want.

Comment if u wanna come, and ill give u the address:) and directions

the one thing that scares me most....

2005-01-31T17:53:15Z

is death. Its always scared the shit out of me.

Louie's Aunt died on Saturday. I went to tozzo's party that night and i left at like 9:30, said goodbye to everyone, leaving with all of of thinking that Linda (his aunt) got in an accident and that she would be ok. You never really think that someone is gunna die. So im driving home and Louie calls me reaaaally upset, shit i cant even type this without crying...agggggh ok better...so he calls me and i went back to the party and i tried to make him feel better. It just sucks. Well to everyone....

WEAR UR FUCKIN SEAT BELT!
and live everyday to be your last....peace

...HeLLo FrIeNds...

2004-09-05T21:22:38Z

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